Mirror to my soul.

i wish i could have done things differently. now that i have seen it cave in, i discovered where the structure went wrong. where the rivets and pillars weren't strong enough to hold this up. i wish i could have been me 3-4 years ago.( not-to-self buy a time machine) i didn't care for feelings nor names, it was all business. It was easy for me, no effort needed but everything gained. I've got to say, what i did sucks, I cant even remember half of it. Bad Boy. And now i find myself being the vulnerable one. With Drastic Changes in Complexion and A new Addiction to your Wardrobe that will forever be attached its hard not to change with that too. For years i was wondering what did i do to get this where did i Fuck up, i see it now. I'm paying back all my dues. i have many, I hope that when i'm done with them something good will come my way. its not such a bad thing also, it made me see from the other side of the spectrum where beauty not apply externally but inside hearts. but within my choices they have all been scarred to fall, Trust, ill catch you. It's hard to let in. so don't come near the rattle snake if you don't want to get bit.